A few friends have encouraged me to blog while I go through this transition from Mother to Crone, from the land to a home on wheels, from me to more me. So I begin today and hope that I find that relieving and comforting time in writing down my process. Thanks for coming in by the hearth and having tea. Im interested in your process too ❤
This house is calling for me to leave…. and still I am here and it seems I just may be here a little while. The thought of parking an RV outside and slowly, surely begin moving out into it and watch as my 3 dogs (2 very old doggers), Raven and I get use to our new home, brings a sense of movement. This is all in the hope that the bank doesn’t pull any quick maneuvers to force me to leave sooner. If that’s the case, I welcome a caretaking position on someones homestead nearby.
Yesterday, while maneuvering through this poor forbidden house, I had a moment of seeing the future? of feeling the change? standing by my little RV’s stove (cooking omelets and tea), the kids laying around RIGHT THERE (not just my kids either). the dogs somewhere close and safe…. everything in place to cook, to clean, to enjoy. Water running from the sink and a sense of order…. I love the image of a million people on top of and in an old bus with chickens and goats happy on a dirt road…now this is also my idea of order.
I tried to stop myself from longing for awhile…. screw that. Im ready for a new home and a real sense of money flowing in my life that comes from ME, MY LIFESTYLE. FLOW LIKE WATER. I work hard being me. I love to work hard, always have….. Its true, im not a realist, don’t really like doing “reality checks”….. and sometimes I do for order is a good thing. Mostly I like to focus on what makes life feel really good today and what I can do in order for it to keep going in that direction… it usually involves being me. hehe
This morning in my reading, I wrote down this quote from The Jesus Book by Durga Holzhauser and Agni Eikermann
“How the Essenes Serve: We learn to create unity out of duality, and in this blending we are able to heal according to Gods word”
Bring it ❤